Negative be gone Poof!

As i wake up blessed, with all my family safe and unharmed by the evils of this world...we as a family are still struggling.  Personally, professionally, together and apart the challenges just keep coming and thats ok.  What we must keep in mind is we stick together.  Now teaching THAT to a teenager that is ungrateful or another that is barely able to breathe due to allergies and two others that dont seem to care much for anyone mostly there family......we are tired and we are faced daily with the reality's of negativity and very little positive or appreciation from our own world, but parents dont seem to count quite yet.  (that poor gbaby of ours is too far away, maybe thats a blessing)

Ive heard it said that Negativity can literally make us sick or keep us from healing together or as one. (im learning this for the second time as i heal this stupid rib. Coinquidink its a rib huh?)  That is why when life "happens" we must find balance with what is positive and what is negative.  Too much negative can be a hard place to live.  Too much positive and one might think in this day...well step away from the bottle (lol).  I look at this world as a big picture and my own life as a very small one (in comparison to any person involved with the horror in Boston yesterday, or a school/movie shooting) and feel sometimes that the Negative is winning. I miss calm, smiles as they come few and far between. What needs to be going through my head is that this is temporary.  Seems our world is fighting that very same battle. (in theory of course)  I for one must fight back with prayer and positive energy.  If we replace the word Negative with The Devil himself.....i have to remind myself a lot these days as i look at everything that surrounds my life and loves....and say you Sir, are not welcome here!  No matter how tired i am, how high the cost of living is getting, how much i struggle just to put my damn feet on the floor on some days and face my day (yes and smile...) instead of coming Unglued. Balance must be found, consideration for others must become a priority and Love will thrive. All things are possible and You are always with me... In Jesus name in this house and our Country's, Amen!  Now.......smile and hug someone today.  Let that Devil know.......Be gone **Poof**

Questions from a mom...to be continued.

1. why cant we come home with the pain button for 25 years?
2. why is the only rule book i can count on is the bible for raising kids? We must take a test to drive but not to have a child?
3. why do all those teeth hurt so bad then fall out?
4. whats more expensive diapers or braces?
5. why did markers start being erasable after my kids are grown?
6. why do they all have to pick my worst qualities to take after?
7. why do they only want something when i am in the shower or bathroom or when its not in the budget that month?
8. 10 passy's in the crib and one child.  2 am comes and passys are gone?  Really?
9. move heaven and earth to make something important happen for one of your children and the thank you............never comes.  but that smile......why is that ok for a mom?
10. why cant we eat our young?
11. what happens to brains of children when they turn 12?
12. how do they live and sleep and eat all in the same place?  Their bed (but they think you dont know it)
13.  Why must their drama that is so and so's drama affect my dinner?

i can go on and on and on and on......I also wonder why a dr told me at a young age that i might have to accept not having children due to some medical issues.  Yet here i am.  Exhausted and blessed all at the same time.  Daily, wondering if it will be a hug or a hollar at breakfast or dinner.  My dad said (as bill cosby did) "Raising children is an endurance contest, dont show fear!"  In my case i have always been out numbered and one of them got taller and gave me a gbaby.    
You couldnt pay me to be a teenager again today.  Its scary and hard and we have to raise our children to be tougher and stronger because of it.  That in itself will cause a problem a day.  I was blessed to be self employeed the first 16 years of motherhood.  My newest challenge i add to my over flowing plate of this family of mine is balancing family and a full time job.  
To all those why's and the ones i didnt type i say this.  God has a sense of humor.  Thats why.
Raising children has been and will continue to be the most difficult/ painful  and incredibly blessed success i will have.   I always said that.  Now......A family (meaning i have always been a single parent).....this, this shit is hard.  I should start making my lists of why's for Family next.  Yet, without any answers for family or my beautifully created babies (that drive me to drink on occasion heavily) i wouldnt have it any other way.  I have a sneaking suspicion He knew that.