I am not wo those emotions anymore. But i am still learning. I have one person i just cant seem to forgive. I cant let go off that pain. I have prayed about if for over 30 years and it will get better. But other than that person, i am actually quick to forgive. Holding on to anger, resentment and pain can actually cause me to get sick. Make the people around me not happy. My family does not deserve a mom or gf angry all the time because of another person that doesnt matter anymore.
I actually had a person say to me "i hope you can get past this and forgive me, then you can finally be happy. you are such an unhappy person Michelle" My response was simple. I forgave you a long time ago. I just dont like you. I wish you well but i do not see a reason for you to call me. The reality is that person is unhappy and an unhappy person can only see unhappy, be unhappy, think unhappy. That same person was shocked i would forgive them. so much he/she cried and hung up.
I have another person that simply will not forgive me. Now this is another issue. With Gods help i have learned i do not need someone to forgive me. i had to forgive myself, ask God to forgive me and move on. I have asked that person for forgiveness and tried to show that person how it took two to make some of the issues at hand. refusal to grant the forgiveness and move on.....has and is hurting this person not me.
Our children learn by example. With all i have done as a mom in almost 20 years. My children no me to be a flawed person. Not perfect, not June Cleaver and because of this i hope that these flaws i have been honest with keeps them honest with me. Admitting mistakes and owning them is difficult. Forgiving others can be painful. Once you have done both... cut it loose. Pray for them and move on. Only in that forgiveness can you truly be free.
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